YAAAAAAAAAAAY!

All of my Exams are done,
And the drinking has begun.
Early presents being opened,
Wine glasses accidentally broken.

Fattening foods and fancy cakes,
Just in time to celebrate.
Vampires, wizards and some gore,
Movie marathons that for sure!

Responsibility down the drain,
3 weeks no need to use my brain.
Chocolate, chocolate, rum, and beer,
Raise a glass, Christmas is here.

Exams

So ... not counting today ... At the end of 5 days, I will be free (for three weeks, but it's still freedom). Exams start tomorrow, and one would think I would be excited to be done my first semester, but we just got out new schedule and I am already dreading it (as is ~99% of my class, NK). 12 - 14 classes (depending on the week) all separate subjects. Blarg is all I have to say to that.

Back to studying!

Computer Gods

So, I am trying my damnest to stay in this city, stay in my program and not go back home. but it seems that even the computer Gods are against me. My laptop is seriously F-ed up. It's been formatted (to the original factory condition) three times now and it's still not fixing any of the issues.

I had a moment last night. There were some silent screams and some I desperately wanted to bite something or someone (luckily I was alone). I'm still very frustrated, but I don't have time to let myself get too wound up. These next two weeks are going to be insane!!!

But, I am trying to focus on Christmas. "... the parties, the disasters, with my friends all pretty and plastered." - cause that is EXACTLY the Christmas I am going to need this year! Just three weeks of mind-numbing activities and adventures and then I can get through 15 more weeks staring January. That's it! 15 weeks and it'll be summer for 4 months. So ... yeah. I'll made it until summer. Then I will decide about year two. I could always just apply to do my masters in something next September instead of continue with dental hygiene. If any of y'all have any advice on Masters or could talk to me about what I could consider doing, send me an email. I'd super appreciate it!

NOT IMPRESSED!

 It's December. There's snow and ice on the ground. It's freezing. It's midnight. And I was standing outside on one spot for 30 minutes. NOT IMPRESSED!!! Some stupid numbnuts pulled the fire alarm. Had to wait for the fire department. Then had to wait for them to check the fairly large building and then wait for them to leave. Then there was taking in the lobby for a few minutes before they actually allowed us back in. I can't wait to get out of here for three whole weeks.

Heh, haircut and fire alarm makes for an exciting evening me.
Wasn't that long ago that screeching alarms, screaming people, being under dressed in freezing temperatures, and surrounded by people carrying on their drinking parties in the face of an emergency would have been a semi-normal night. How things change.

I miss my adventures.
Mental note: Just get through 4 more months you'll have all the time in the world to get caught up in episodes.

Hair Update

So ... shortest my hair has ever been. I'm not sure what I think of it. I don't think I like the back at all. But I never really have to loo at it. I think I like the front. It's just SO WEIRD to me! (It took two beers to go through with it.)

Hair!

I am going to the salon and if they have a walk in ... I MAY get a hair cut. MAY!! It's long and mid back right now. Will update later. (This is a BIG maybe though).

Lights

Went to a Lights concert last week. It was actually pretty good. I haven't much listened to the radio since September, so I haven't heard pretty much anyone's new songs. I like a lot of hers. So I think I'll get them. Going out this weekend with my brother and some friends. Kind of excited to get out and see real people. Not that students aren't real people, but I am living in the dorms with a lot of 17 yr olds and I REALLY need to get away from the squeaking and giggles and constant I-don't-know-how-to-drink-properly-and-only-do-it-cause-I-can Thursday-to-Sunday night parties. The benefit of being right on campus sort of outweighs that.

I wish I had more exciting things to talk about, but I haven't had time for any of my adventures for a while. I'm hoping to have a bunch come summer. I'm trying to keep myself excited by considering going overseas after I graduate to work. The school helps to set you up in countries you want to work in. For now I'm considering Japan, England (see where I come from), France, or Italy. So that's excited. Whether it happens or not and I decide to just stay in Canada doesn't matter. It's the thought that I can do that once I finish. And I totally expect visitors!

2 Weeks!

There are two weeks until I can get the hell out of here!

I watch all the planes fly by my window and some days it makes me want to fly. But soon I will be on one of them. Yay!

I'm struggling, but keeping myself together. I'm trying not to let those little (actually rather huge) voices nagging me, get the better of me. I'm trying to focus on summer. I just have to make it until mid April and I can spend the whole summer in the country writing. That just sounds so awesome.

Half Past the Point of no Return

I'm not sure about this. I'm about $20,000 in - so I feel like I can't quit. It's not like I'm failing ... or doing poorly. I've been rocking all my classes, labs and clinics. In fact, this is the best I have been doing in any school - ever!

I was sitting in clinic today and looking up over the half walls at the dental lights and the ceiling and I felt as though I was losing myself. This really isn't me. Why did I chose this? Because I need a real career. But I so need to be creative, I feel like I'm dying a little inside.

Since starting school, I haven't had time for any of my instruments or any writing. I feel absolutely trapped here because of the amount of money. And there are still 2.5 years to go. I'll finish this semester. Take Christmas Break to relax and then come back and finish up the year. Maybe after the summer, I'll want to come back a second year. It's certainly been an adjustment from having a full time career and travelling all the time to being stuck here and a student again. And maybe that's all these feelings are. I have to admit they have gotten better since September. September was an emotional disaster! I am so thankful for $3/month unlimited calling on Skype. It was the only thing that saved me.